hers

.Thursday, November 17, 2011 ' 7:37 PM

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been thinking alot lately. today, i realized.
i had been a fool. i was asking for it all these times.
everytime when you do something to hurt me, when we had our cold wars,i was always the one to ask you back. i was always the one giving lame excuses to see you.
today i stood back and took a good look at us. and i realized, no matter how much you said you loved me, no matter how much you said you didnt want to leave. it was just all talk and NO actions.
somewhere deep in my bleeding heart, i was laughing at myself. what a fool i've been. if you had really loved me that much, there will never be a 3rd person. what more person'S'. if you had really wanted me to be yours, you would have kept your promises. you would have done more. you would be desperately wanting to see me, hold me, asking for forgiveness.
now i dont blame you. for still being able to go out and play, every time we werent in good terms. i dont blame you for acting like a desperate lesbian who kiss and make out with anyone she sees. because i realized and i think u should too, that i was never that ONE. and because of that, you have been trapped in that cage for 1 and a half years now.
it was a nice thought that i could be that ONE. that ONE who can make your mind heart body and soul stop wanting anything from others, but me. sadly that wasnt the case. your mind heart body and soul says it all.
knowing one day you might read this post. i hope you well. which i know you will be.
i am letting you go now. i need to move on. though it is not easy. i will be fine.
thank you for all the happy memorise.
goodbye SH. be good.